Disconnected?

I admit that lately I have been cold….

disconnected…

and sometimes here but not here, (do you get it)….

I got one hell of a temper tantrum…

words that should have never gotten out of my mouth got lose….

did mean to hurt anyone but somehow I did …..

I am somewhat somewhere….

I loved but I hated, I care but do not want to show it….

I am somehow disconnected, stressed, feeling like a stone…

But inside me I am crying and dying….

I want to change this….

But how…..

Only time can tell…

Of what, why and how I am feeling these…

So distant and cold….

Can you really blame me?

For what and how I am feeling….

I don’t think so…

Maybe in time I will be back to my normal me….

Just wait patiently…

I will be connected to the real world again…. soon………